Modesty

I never thought that I can stream the radio channels in Malaysia via iPhone. That's so cool! Buy an iPhone, worth it!

*Apple, can I get extra discount on MacBook coz' I promoted one of your product? Please.*

I'll never gonna buy MacBook anyway. I had Biochemistry and Histology classes today, since this is the last week of classes before our New Year Break, so we didn't expect anything to be that 'hard'. Ouh, except for Histology, we've got concluding test; It's PMS time! However, passed that test already. But, something seemed so wrong today. Everything was so damn straight and lucky today. It's like I'm not suppose to get that marks, but I've got that marks. I wondered why is it has to be like this? You know, when I'm ready, everything that will happen is crap. No seriously crap. But, if I didn't ready for anything (last minute struggle, didn't read lecture note, didn't draw anything, didn't know any slide), then what I got is, not bad. Uish, this is so wrong. Syukr.

Okay, actually I stopped at the paragraph above yesterday. Because? I was not in the mood. Now I'm back, in 31 December. Yeah, currently the whole Russians and maybe most of my friends are counting down to celebrate New Year? Me, hell to the NO. Last year I slept,so what should I expect for this year anyway?

*Suddenly, I just realized that, I'm improving a lot in writing, like no need to watch for any 'past or present tense' in each sentence. This is so WOW. But still I'm suck in writing though.*

Few days past, my friend posted in her blog about 'Kesederhanaan' which bring us to the topic- 'Modesty'. Actually I am much interested in my other friend's blog post, which is about 'lecture'. Yeah, I admit that I felt offended by her post, BUT SERIOUSLY I have my own reasons to say that I'm right, and nevertheless she's wrong. Nevermind, it's better to be in 'peace' right? Did you get what I mean 'peace'? Ah, whatever.

Back to the topic, actually, when I was reading her blog, 'light bulb' suddenly appeared which brought me to write an offended-or-not status in Facebook- "Do we consider it is modesty when we appear to show off the modesty?". Yeah, it was all of sudden idea. Somehow, she felt kinda offended with that status. Sorry Aynn, I had no intention at all, it just only...an idea. I am so manipulative in seeing positive things to negative things; coz' I'm not an optimist. That's why I love opposing something. But, seriously do we consider things ARE in MODESTY if we SHOW OFF the modesty? I see, 'modesty' is the opposite of 'show off', but still, modesty is kinda 'good' right? Actually Aynn did asked me, what is 'modesty' actually is? How do we measure it?

Sincerely, modesty is hard to measure. It's hard because it involves our heart. My Ustazah once said that, what we see people from the outside, is what we can see people from the inside. Sorry Ustazah, since the first second you said that, my answer is still NO until now. You can't judge people from the outside; how he wears, how he talks, how he's saying thank you, how he appreciates things. Simply because everyone is UNIQUE. God made us with different faces, attitudes, thus making our community has our own diversity. There's a reason for that. Maybe you said he's showing off his modesty; like Nik Aziz does. He lives in moderate house. He's doing that because he wanna show people 'be like me'. See, it depends on people, because Allah told us that, everything that we voluntarily do, firstly it starts with 'nawaitu'. Not stimulus as in Physiology.

That is not wrong.

Does living as a moderate person means we can't get anything better than others? I mean, like I wanna an iPhone, suddenly, there's a makcik was begging for money on the street, you cancelled it just because you think "I'm buying this iPhone, while that makcik was begging for money", then, "It's better I give all my money to her so that she can get better life as me". Well, that's fucking stupid moderate, seriously no offense. We have our own life, we work for it.

"But but, how about if I'll talk only among the girls, no guys, is it still can be considered as I am moderate in conversation?". Man, this is what I have to say, it's right, but depends. I'm not playing God, but I'm giving my opinion. This is not an ultimate truth, like I said, it's just an opinion. Kita cakap kita Muslim bersaudara, tapi apa yang terjadi di sini, yang aku nampak aku dan aku Muslim lelaki, yang lebih ketara, kau dan kau Muslimah perempuan. Cakap saudara seIslam, tapi, bila kau perlukan pertolongan kuli laki baru kau terhegeh-hegeh nak baik dengan lelaki, apa kes?

Nah, boring la, lebih baik aku layan Naomi yang sedap-sedap dok atas peha aku yang empuk ni, dari aku layan rigidity. Pfft. Babai. Naomi pun dah lari, aku lagi la.

Salam.

MSA

I would like to say thanks to, first and foremost, the election committee for doing a very nice and very very very very very very systematic jobs plus seriously we, the students, really love your effort in making out the great improvement and ideas; the MSA dissolution and few awards. I was totally surprised, by then, we indeed also surprised by that. It gives our community a great appreciation throughout what they have done; Arvinraj, Husainy, and so on. *clapping*

Nevertheless, not to be a racist here, but congrats to those who won and got the place in MSA positions, although most of the positions are conquered by the Malays. Malays or not, for me, if once you've got the responsibilities, get it done nicely, beautifully, and efficiently. You are holding the ultimate trusts from our communities, thus, everything and everyone is relying on you. Please, don't make us disappointed. I'm a bit disappointed when the election ended, some group of 'people' left the hall with a 'sad' face. We shouldn't be like that. All that we can do is to support them, because after this, a great change gonna happen, hence, the unity will be the main mission ahead of us.

All that happened there, for me, the most precious thing I did there is, thanking Chan Sin Chai (our ex-MSA president) and Johan Ariff for their contributions and helps when I was in Malaysia, having trouble alone with my VISA, while others are blinding their eyes thinking nothing happened *for certain people only*.

"We voted for a change, then let the change votes for us"

Salam.

Hari Penentuan?

Enough relaxing yesterday, today started with a happy yet a lucky day, indeed. I was totally happy about today, I don't know I'll be happy or not after that MSA election, but, for 18 hours 46 minutes, totally worth. I didn't get any presents or kisses, or hugs, or whatever that commonly human gets, but, what I got is, a question.

Don't freaking wonder an 'out of the box question', seriously, I was just glad that I've got an easy question for Physiology class discussion today. It's not that 'yeay', but for someone who didn't prepare anything at all by just sleeping all night after a tiring paintball match, I think that is so awesome. I opened the Physiology book during the class was about to start, started reading few things which commonly I didn't know how to 'goreng' them, then fed up. I thought, maybe I just can get an extra help there; ask your friend to explain everything to you. Since my teacher is 'mrs-follow-name-list', so everything was so 'predictable'. I read all the things that I predicted, then, done. Actually, I didn't read 'all', only few of them. Owh yeah.

Yesterday, we had a wonderful (?) paintball match. Owh, this is so 'SPM-like' essay (I never wrote factual essay p.s), hope you guys can bare with this. Owh, well maybe Meera Banu can bare with this. Anyway, it's not that paintball match that I was so excited so so much to tell you, but, it was during our journey, what we talked about. Apparently, I didn't talk much, but, my seniors, Abang Syazwan and Anuar talked much. Obviously it's about politic, here in Volgograd. There's the truth in what they had spoken. Maybe for some people, it's an offense, but, seriously, how Abang Syazwan sees things, and how Abang Anuar/Anwar agreed with that, that's so weird, totally out of from what I've expected, especially about Abang Anwar. He explained lots of thing, mainly about:

"What they called 'Islam', but it's not Islam. But what they called 'not Islam', is really 'Islam'.

Obviously, what our religion taught us, like dancing and singing is not encouraged, it's like a 'wrong things' to do. It's on 'black and white' side. People sees like that. For me, Abang Syazwan said that, here in Volgograd, now, we are so vernacularism (or what ever you wanna call them), where, Muslims with Muslims, Hindus with Hindus, and Christians with Christians, and Buddhists with Buddhists. It isn't wrong, but, we admitted that we are Malaysians. Malaysia means Malays, Indians, Chinese, Ibans, Kadazans, Singhs, or whatever it is, and so be it. Don't expect one Malaysia in here. Seriously, it is not 1Malaysia. He said: "Dulu tak cam ni doh. Dulu time aku padfak (preparatory course), kalau raye je, semua India, Cina, sekali tolong masak semue. Lain doh sekarang, bila dah ramai, semua dah mula berpisah". "Aku rasa kita kena buat Malam Aspirasi kita sendiri". What I shocked is, "Aku setuju dengan mu etong (abang Syazwan)" said Abang Anwar.

"Kita kat sini pikir nak Islam tuh, macam pemerintahan negara polis. Gunakan kuasa. Memang kuasa itu salah satu cara, tapi, bukannya yang utama. Apa yang utama, lihat balik maksud Islam, iaitu 'sejahtera'. Buat apa kita nak boikot itu, boikot ini. Banyak orang fikir, Islam itu perlu jadi seperti 'Islam-orthodox" (tak ingat, tapi maksud dia macam islam tegar, so I put 'Islam-orthodox'). Semua macam 'mu kena ikut cakap aku'. Islam tak begitu, Islam sejahtera. Kita patut menganjurkan Malam Aspirasi macam yang kat Moscow buat tuh, sebab, itu menggalakkan kerjasama. Cuma, adalah batasan-batasan dia, tak perlu terlampau liar, terutamanya Islam. Ada sajak, ada syair, ada nyanyian, tarian biasa-biasa, sudah mencukupi, apa yang penting, isi di dalamnya. Sini, orang yang fikir 'islam', bila dengar 'Malaysian Night' sudah macam-macam, semuanya teruk, semua kafir, semuanya dosa. Apa yang penting 'ISI' didalamnya."

He really opened my eyes. It's just USRAH USRAH USRAH, posting hadith this and that only, saying this and that, and MSA must be conducted by Muslims, what is important here is 'cooperation'. You said: Islam is not a name, it's a VERB. Apparently, you are making Islam is A NAME, A NOUN. Seriously, I don't need hadiths and Al-Quran to tell me this simple thing; how 'harmony' is so important, because, there's a lot of thing Allah created to us, the trees, air, animals, cats (?), not just al-Quran and us. We are given an akal, and brain, to think. Remember, Al-Quran and Hadith is not a rule which being set up, it's a 'GUIDANCE'. You said: "Pokok beralun ditiup angin, that is Islam, because it follows Sunnatullah (for Meera: it's like a rule being set up by Allah, like, if we kick a ball, then the ball move, so it follows Sunnatullah, but, if we kick the ball, then the ball DIDN'T move, so it's not Islam), but, look what have you done? You (some of the ehem ehem) discriminates others. Sorry, I have my weakness too, but, come on, I saying this for myself and you and you out there. Don't be so Orthodox, WHERE:

1. "I cannot talk with men, even my classmates I should rarely talk"
2. "Men cannot wear jersey with 'holy cross' logo on it.
3. etc.

Dude, ya habibi sekalian, simply what I see from you guys are just bunch of 'matlamat menghalalkan cara'. When it comes to your side, "ouh it's okay, i can talk with you". When it comes to others, "NO NO effing NO you CAN'T !!". So sick of this. Really. I see, seriously, you guys can do what you guys wanna do, who is 'typically' just like you, when it comes to 'other' than you, then it is wrong. Tudung for example. When it comes to guys who are wearing England jersey, you so totally gonna say it WRONG! Nevertheless, when it come to you tudung,....(malas nak cakap, nanti ada yang panas).....you gonna say; "it's okay".

Conclusion is, be as 'Islam' as we want. And also, be as 'islam' as we should.

Sekian, and salam. Enjoy the pics:

Paintball in another region (Kirovsy region). We've got SECOND PLACE. OWH YEAH.

I love my cats, more than I love 'those' guys.

Keep the change y'all.

Moody

Just wondered, why suddenly my friends became moody. I mean, yeah I know, exam is just around the corner, but come on dude, life is not just meant for exams. Exams are not our life!!! So, chill dude. I seriously, kinda not understand why suddenly they became so freaking tension about exams, even though, you guys are much freaking more smarter than I am. Well, I'm not smart, I'm stupid, so guess you guys get what I mean, coz I do not even near to 'smart'. That's just awesome. Read lot of blogs recently, seemed actually my friends DID have blog already. Just started, or, long time ago already started, guess, I should say "welcome to the blogging world" where you guys can see me and how I screw my life.

Well that's just it. Am I propa?

So, for the blogs, they are just SO CUTE. I don't mean to be girlish here, but seriously, they-are-cute, with cute songs. Skip about the songs, coz' actually I just close them off, as it annoys. Actually, I didn't read that type of blog much. Except I.luv.Islam. So, either I'm high, or I'm freaking boring, 'that' type of blog, is seriously helping me. Like today, I know that the Prophet Solomon who are the first person in this world who wrote "Basmallah". That's so cool. I mean, it's cool, full-stop.

No, I really mean it, it's freaking cool.

Nevertheless, Im gonna say this: please don't write anything and hope that everyone gonna read your post. Because, it diminishes (?) your interest to write. I called this, 'keikhlasan berblogging'. Perh, I'm writing this like I'm a senior blogger. Well, I'm saying this, honestly, cesno-ly, tochno-ly, jujur-ly, because I like every single post you guys wrote. I know, I know, "Why? Kami tulis pasal diri kami, and letak hadis-hadis je..."

Well, I like it that way; when people writes. Because, when we write, we are trying to be who we want to be. Which is, totally not the same thing when you are in the real life. Life sucks, then made a new one in blog, maybe that's the way of finding our true life (?). I'm saying this because I like to read other's blog, although I'm feeling quite, u-n-c-o-m-f-o-r-t-a-b-l-e when others read my blog. Keep on writing, don't stop. If you stop, then...

Anyway, since all of sudden, my mood came back, Im gonna write about Chacha and Naomi. Well maybe my 'true' seniors (hafiz and fairuz) came to my house, made some noise, laughed bwahaha too much. Okay, I'm feeling sleepy right now. Better get thing fast.

Last Thursday, Suffian and Husaini suddenly came to me, who was surfing the internet, stalking few unknown-but-cun girls, and said "Hafidz, doh, pegi tolong anak-anak kucing kat bawah tuh, kene kejar ngan anjing, sekor comel gila, sekor lagi kurang sikit la, kalau nak amek bela, baik pegi amek anak-anak kucing tuh". Honestly, I was lazy that time, but, you know, curiosity seriously killed me. However, I'm coward afterall, so "Husaini, teman aku jap, pakai je seluar tiga suku ko tuh, kat bawah tu je kan?". Then, Suffian all of sudden excited gedik-ly, wanted to follow us also. Shto ever.

We went down, and saw two little freaking cuty-cuty-muty-cute kittens. When I called them, the much more cute one ran inside i-don't-know-how-to-describe, and the white one, just stood there and came to me. It was SO AWW. Then I saw that fucking gryaznii dog, so we took those kittens, and ran back into apartment. As soon as we stepped into the house, they were like "Whaaaat the F is this? Where are we?". Ah, like that. The cute one, just ran into Husaini's bed. It took about 15 minutes to find her, I didn't where the heck she hided. I'm so fat, so, yeah understand right why it was so hard to find her. But, soon as we found her, they got their name. Naomi and Chacha.

Chacha. Snow white one.

Naomi. She's cute, but, I captured suck-fully.

Anyway, don't make a 'uhh?' face why we called them like that. Actually Suffian and Husaini, not me. Cacha is from Acha Septriasa because, Suffian kind of obsessed with her, I don't know why, and Naomi, thought you guys already know, it is from Naomi Campbell, because Husaini was obsessed with the modeling yada yada.

Anyway, that evening (already night but it is aroung 4-5 o'clock) I decided to adopt them, so did Husaini and Suffian. For me, cats are part of my life. It's like a creature, who sent by God to let us treat them nicely, kindly, and we get bonuses from that. I mean in term of Pahala. Sabar or not. Nevermind. SO, I and Husaini went to bank, I withdrew all my money (around RM 500) to buy all the stuffs, the cage, the foods, the spray, shampoo, bla bla. But, I ended paying just around RM200 roughly. I was actually preparing for the worst. I was so freaking happy, although it is me who paid for everything, with my account zero (kan duit habis beli tiket flight dulu, so duit tiap-tiap bulan sebenarnya cukup makan je la), but, seeing those kittens running happily in my warm house, instead of playing in the cold weather, with poor hygiene, that is more than enough of what I wanted to help people. Apparently, they helped me already. Happy. Responsible. They are my true friends. Not humans. Humans are ruubish who actually be friend with people who are supposed to bring benefit to them without them giving any benefit to him/her. FUCK THAT!

I'd been in that place, so let's just admit it. So, don't talk about Islam in front of me, if this simple thing you can't obey. Help each other. Don't just redha redha. Psst.

Anyway, that's the simple story of how-i-met-your-kittens. That's all folks. Salam.

Malas

Malas nak bukak buku.

Malas nak main internet.

Malas nak pergi latihan badminton.

Malas nak ulangkaji.

Malas nak buat kerja sekolah.

Malas nak makan.

Malas nak berkawan.

Malas lagilah nak kawen.

Malas nak buat nota.

Malas nak photostat skema.

Malas nak blogging.

Malas nak mandi.

Malas nak buat kerja apa-apa pun.

Rajin nak stay dalam selimut.

Rajin termenung jauh.

Rajin tangkap gambar tak bermotif.

Rajin nak jerit kat orang yang buat bising.

Rajin nak sembang.

Rajin peluk kucing.

Rajin baring-baring.

Rajin nak tidor.

Rajin tengok movie.

Rajin tengok House.

Rajin dengar iPod.

Sekarang bagitau aku,

1. Bagaimana result exam aku?
2. Punca kemalasan aku?
3. Bagaimana nak rawat (?) if any la.
4. Bagaimana nak hilangkan habit ni?
5. Kenapa habit ni datang time winter yang tak berapa nak winter ni?
6. Kenapa snow tak turun?
7. Adakah atas alasan ini, aku nanti cepat boring walaupun aku memang boring untuk semua orang?
8. Mungkinkah dengan sembahyang semua tuh dapat merawat semua ini?
9. Tak mengantuk ke kalau aku studi 30 minit sebelum pukul 1?
10. Apakah ini gara-gara aku rasa down sebab exam nak dekat?

sila, jawab kalau berani. seriously takde mood nak citer pasal naomi and chacha. huhu. kenapa? 3 hari aku bukak dashboard rasa taknak tulis kejadah sikit pun.

salam.

Dah agak.

Macam biasa, bila hari ni Biochem, seriously, aku dah malas dengan Biochem (untuk sem ni je la) sebab, memikirkan pasal Biochem, boleh buat aku period 32 hari tanpa henti. Jadi, sebagai langkah penyelesaian, tapayah nak ready-ready untuk hari ini punya kelas, instead, tengok lagi movie despicable me. Lagipun, topik hari ni pasal membrane, so yeah, logik akal sudah. Cikgu tanya "What is membrane?", jawablah "membrane itu macam fence cikgu". pastu bila dia masuk crystal state semua tuh, aku pun masuklah dalam crystal state aku.

tido. owh yeahh. owh yeahh.

actually lamaaa aku tak tido dalam kelas. so tido sampai habis kelas, selepas berpenat lelah mengekang mata tengok dia mengajar, which is mengajar, tapi result dia macam tak mengajar, so better tidor terus. tapi aku suka tanya dia one to one, senang belajar. kalau ramai-ramai, sori, bedtime story. iyelah, paham memang sakit bagi kawan aku Sufian, kena mengekang mata, sebab dalam group aku, enam-enam orang tido, Pian je la layan dia. penat lorh.

itu satu.

kedua, time histo. macam yang aku agak la, dia cakap nak kena belajar itu ini, semua ulang balik. last2, dia kasi slide, suruh lukis, and then, sampai ke habis dia keluar kelas, aku pulak tnak tido time tuh (menyesal tak berlagu waa), aku just lukis dan lukis dan lukis, mmg hobby aku (tau lukisan hodoh tapi mmg art tuh hodoh pun), sampai ke habis masa. and lagi setengah jam kelas nak habis, dia datang, semua orang tengah tido kecuali aku, pastu dia suruh balik. sampai dengan laju, siap pakai baju lawa-lawa.

omigosh. wtfreak.

kawan aku cakap, dia nak pegi candle light dinner dengan suami dia (ketua jabatan anatomi) dan buat sesuatu yang 'ganas' lepas itu. haha. apa-apa jela. by the time dia dah habes cakap bla bla, amek slide semua balik, suruh ktorang g berambus, THAT TIME I KNEW SOMETHING.

i seriously seriously seriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiooooooouuuusssssly....gonna fail my Histo exam. no offense. but seriously, paham je la kan.

nyah, cik nak buat lagu mana ni nyaaaahhh, tinggai 2-3 minggu lagu ja nyahhh???

-.-"""

k, bye salam.

DSLR NIKON D7000

The snow melted already, and my shoes wet. That's why I really hate winter. When the snow/sneg(in Russian) melt. Today was kinda rainy day, that's why the snows are melting pretty fast. Hope tonight gonna be a ice 'kacang' coming down. ^.^

Anyway, don't be offended by my last post, I did it certainly to a particular person. Disappointed really. She can be all she wants, non of my business after all.

DONE.

Last night, I just finished my newest movie, which was, the "Despicable Me". I thought it was, an action movie, I mean, not 3D cartoon. But, it was a great cartoon, you guys should watch it. Again, instead of Korean movies, just watch the cartoon. Seriously, if you didn't laugh at all, you don't have a 'sense of humor' though.

Everytime I just wonder, why does people still look me like I was an ex-Badar? Like today, like last week, like last last week. Sigh. Sorry, I did everything so that you guys suppose to look at me like laknat-disgrace-ex-Badar. Sigh. Nevermind.

Sigh.

The main thing I wanna post here is, today I saw a camera. Kind of new. A Nikon. Not D7000 (gosh, D7000 will arrive here in Volgograd in 2015, I bet). But, the maximum-freaking-me-out Nikon D3s. "I love that fluffy unicorn, I wanna die !!!" - a kid in Despicable Me said. Same goes to me, "I love that D3s Nikon DSLR, I wanna freaking die !!!". Seriously, they sell that camera for only around 186 000 Roubles ONLY. Opps, in other word, around RM 18 000. The body only. Yes, I mentioned 'only'. Which bring to my words again: "I wanna freaking..."

"DIE !!!".

No I mean, I'll die if I buy it. You now, eating sands from 1 January to 31 December 2011, drink Pipe-besi, enjoy snow-cream, which are all totally FREE-OF-CHARGE-KEEP-THE-CHANGE. I'm not gonna buy it anyway. I want my D7000. Full-stop. But, hell when? I've got RM 400 in my account, so that thing, around RM 5000, including all other accessories, bla bla.

So, I think I'll go for an Instax. Girlish, yeah. But, it saves, my money, and I can get that in no time. I'm touring Europe this year, summer, so DSLR, I should buy it.

Can someone tell me, did Fujifilm Instax saves all the picture taken in memory card? or, it'll just print everything everytime once, I capture a picture? Gosh, I really need to save up my money. No hope for the American dollars currency value gonna rise up, really. America sucks. They got Apple, this and that, but, still, why do you guys still economy crisis nightmare?

I'll never trust dollar. Again.

K, bye-bye, Salam.

The art of making jokes. Sense of humor?

Al Quran cakap itu, al-Quran tulis ini.

Hadith cakap itu, hadith cakap ini.

Nasihat orang, nasihat orang ini.

BAGUS !!!

Suka fitnah itu, suka fitnah ini.

Cakap salah itu, cakap salah ini.

Tunding orang itu, tunding orang ini.

Suka kutukan itu, suka kutukan ini.

BAGUS ?!! SUKA?!!

Tiada maknanya kalau berapi-rapi cakap pasal Islam, tapi kau suka fitnah, kau ikut fitnah, kau mengumpat, kau benci orang. Kau sama saja lah.

Kau cakap itu lawak, aku cakap itu fitnah.

Sebab? Aku tak perlukan hadith untuk beritahu "bercakap buruk tentang seseorang di belakang dikira mengumpat". Dan, sebagai tambahan, nak tau?

“Jika kamu berkata mengenai perkara yang benar-benar berlaku pada dirinya bererti kamu mengumpatnya, jika perkara yang tidak berlaku pada dirinya bererti kamu memfitnahnya.” (Hadis riwayat Abu Hurairah)

Suka?

Sebab the art of mengumpat adalah tidak menyebut nama orang itu. Kau mengumpat sebenarnya, sebab kau suka nama tersebut dikutuk, dicela.

Sama-sama muhasabah diri. Ada perkara dalam dunia ini, kau mampu fikir, yang mana salah dan betul. Ada benda yang salah, maka salahlah, ada yang betul, maka betullah. Jangan narrow-minded sangat.

Salam.

*khas untuk teguran 'saudari' yang ada 'sense of humor'*

It melts. again. :(

It melts. Again :(

Salam.

I took few of my times writing this out, updating what really had happened today. 2 bad news. 1 good news.

The good news is, the rebellious Russians demonstration ended peacefully with the snow falling in the midnight (which was yesterday). The bad news, firstly, is I’m not going to play single; I’ve lost to Tan Eei Ling, a Sabahan Chinese who was a state player. You know, Eei Ling is not boy, she’s a girl who plays like a boy (seriously, she did play like a boy). Back then, it was my fault really. I was really tired last night, doing nothing. Just tired. You know, perhaps this already happened to you guys, when some of your friends made a joke, you can’t even barely laugh. It was not because you’re being dumped by a girl, it’s not like you failed your Biochemistry test (ah, might be, like I already screwed up my test T.T), it just like feeling moody without any reasons. I guess, if Husaini slaps me in the face 100 times, I might say “Go on, I like nociception”. Okay, that’s totally a lie. I might kick him just before he thinks of slapping me. =)

OH, Sorry Husaini, I’m not saying anything bad. *He’s singing Siti Nurhaliza’s songs which totally wrecked my head off -.-“”*

Second bad news is, the snow is melting back, all the way to water. Or, should I say, snow mud. This is SO-NOT-WINTER!!!

Suddenly, I’m bringing back what I already thought, and maybe the same thing like what Albert Einstein thought, years ago. It’s time. It’s the time to think about time. No I mean, soon, later, after, already; it’s all about time. Life is time. It’s a timeline, exactly. It starts and it ends. Just like this freaking snow that fell last night, and today, it’s melting, again. Perhaps, I shouldn’t be so damn excited about this snow-thing, because, however, it will melt. Again.

Have you ever felt like this?

“Wah, what a very long day. When this is going to end? When when?”

“It’s another 5 minutes for the Russian class to finish, why it took so long to wait ah?”

Seriously, time is not what we think as ‘time’ is. Time is not just 60 seconds equals to 1 minute, and 60 minutes equals to 1 hour, and 24 hours equals to 1 day. It’s just A UNIT. Allah never tells us about this. Not in the Quran, not even in hadiths. How come I’m being so sure about this?

Allah implies time, is not just a unit. Unit of time is actually expandable, nevertheless, repressible. Our life timeline is perfectly arranged. It has the starting point, and it has end point. But time is actually, like Einstein said: it do really correlates with space. In a small space, the time is quite fast. That’s is why sometime, we feel everything happens so fast, and sometimes, it happens so slow, like you ever thinking “How I wish I could just pass this, and nothing going to happen!”- It’s a common sentence 1 day before the exam, with 9857462343234234 pages to read more. Wait a second, Quran is a complete guide, how come the Quran didn’t explain anything about this. Seriously, nothing?

Obviously, no! Quran did explain about these thousand years ago, nothing about those time units seconds, day, actually. Surah al-Asr, is a basic indication, of what is actually Allah tries to tell us, the humans. What did Surah Al-Asr said?

Bismillah…

(1) By time,

(2) Indeed, mankind is in loss,

(3) Except for those who believed and done righteous deed and advised each other to truth and advised each other to patience.

Sodaqallahulazim’

There’s something really peculiar about this verse, I mean, the third verse, “…advised each other to patience.” This is for me, not just as simple as it literally means. There’s an essence that I understand it, in my own POV.

Why it is ‘patience’ is considered with time? Why?

Because, impatience and patience, do have relation with time. We are impatience. We can’t wait for anything. Thus, how come? Impatience, in my POV, I define this as: “A small timeline, with long frame rates (space) which people really can’t endure in each frame”. Ah, never mind, no one will understand this.

Urm, have you ever heard the ‘ratio’ of time in Al-Quran? I can’t remember it, though. Nevertheless, it sounds more or less like this: “1 day in Hell equals to 1000 days in the real world, and so on…” (Can someone add something for this? I don’t know the full or the exact sentences, whether it is hadith or not). But it does indicate, there is space within time.

So, here it kind of pictorial way of telling what I mean:

Anyway, gotta go, got some work to do. Salam.

It's snowing. Again.

Past few weeks, around last 3 weeks, I wrote in Facebook like I was totally excited with all the snows coming, blessing the Volgograd damp soil. But, it hadn't change anything, to me particularly. Wanted to make a video about snow, sadly, it turned out that the next day and the day after that, and 2 weeks after that, they are gone. Seriously, I miss those white snows. Yeah, I hated winter, but not snow. Being in the middle of the snow, feel like in the middle of heaven. Questioning "Why is in my place there no such thing like this?".

12.10 a.m, I realized that, it's snowing. Heavily. At night, and in Russia, in latest situation, going outside in the midnight, it's not a good idea. It might ended up got beaten by the racist Russians. Well, you guys know about this already right? It spreads fast, and things right now haven't slow down yet, instead, it's like a disease which eventually, clawed my area, Volgograd. Yesterday, 4.00 p.m, some said that the Russians held a demonstration. Luckily I arrived at home at 4 p.m without acknowledging about this at all. It was pretty lucky. If not, I'll ended up with broken arms and legs, and my not-handsome-face got 12 stitches for free. Don't ask me why they are acting like that, but one thing that I know, they are far more stupid than us. Hey, I'm just saying.

Anyway, welcome to my new blog theme, a new phase has come. It's snowing again, celebrate our life !!!

Salam.

No hope at all

ANother 1 month, and poof, I'm gonna die. TOTALLY gonna die. Like seriously, anatomy is already a mind-blowing subject, with belambak-lambak questions. You know, meninggalkan satu bulan kelas, boleh mati. terus. tercekik. pitam time jawab exam nanti. but, I'm not gonna blame my extended cuti for that.

But, still, I'm gonna blame someone.

Tiap-tiap minggu kelas ktorang akan ada 2 kelas Histology dalam table. Frequent, tapi tak menyusahkan. Macam masuk, rileks. Buat pekak, pastu balik. Itu je. Tak macam kelas bebudak lain, nak masuk kelas dah kena torture baca itu ini. An advantage la untuk diaorang. Bagi aku, aku prefer macam tu lagi. Well, certainly, it depends on lecturer. Lecturer aku, gosh, malas. And seriously, for the past 3 weeks, including this week, she's being more/less kind of lazy, and kind freaked up with our group. Apart from Indians, yeah, she knows them, but, mann, why I'm in the middle of you guys?

Seriously, tadi adalah ultimate kesabaran aku kat dia. Macam, masuk kelas, keluar sejam, suruh ktorang lukis lukisan dalam album YANG KTORANG DAH LUKIS 2 MINGGU LEPAS LAGI, then dia keluar sejam. pastu masuk, dia tanya "nak rehat?", jawablah nak rehat. pastu keluar, pastu masuk balik, bawak laptop, ingatkan nak ajar. pastu tetibe cakap ada pertandingan sukan. we all were like "wtf seriously sukan? sejuk-sejuk macam ni? and apa pun kat bangunan ni ada hall sukan keee?". I mean, if dah malas, cakaplah dah malas. ktorang pun malas. masa-masa tuh aku boleh sit kat rumah, and open this topic independently. ceh.

then ada member dia dekat dua kali masuk keluar kelas. weh, watefak weh? pastu dia keluar. and then, bincang sikit2 ngan ktoorang psl topik yang takde kaitan ngan minggu ni. dia cakap suruh study laen minggu ni, tapi tanya lain. pastu keluar sekali lagi jumpa kawan, then masuk balik, "awak semua tau, awak semua taktau apa-apa pun, tak belajar apa-apa pun!". pastu dia sambung "repeat semua yang dlm topik ni bla bla bla".

beliece me, the thing repeats. she'll never keep her words.

ah, that is why my histology exams gonna be spoiled. seriously DUST. bukan sbb tak ajar, tapi, once mentality dia like benci we all, so, bye-bye. saya tak letak harapan apa-apa pun. apa nak jadi, jadilah.

and somehow, tadi time pikir pasal exam ni, aku terpikir, "am i enough competing with everyone just to get the best, which somehow, if i'm the best, i'm still the worst kind of student". so boring la pulak jadi orang yang excellent, somehow, failure is fun what?

okeh. that is not my point. but, what i want to say is, gerak sama-sama. mampus la exam. exam tak indicate apa-apa pun. ilmu tuh. adeh.

maybe ni sindrom malas aku kot. menjadi-jadi.

Mencari sibuk.

Ini la logo universiti aku, Volgograd State Medical University. Boring kan? cam lapuk gila. NI pun aku scanned guna scanner dari baju aku. Kalau aku search dalam internet, haram nak jumpa lambang secantik ni, walaupun tak cantik mana pon. hoh.

Ini merupakan lambang/logo yang aku cipta untuk jersi. Many of students right now is UMNO phobia, so, nothing I can do really. But, how about I rebrand this thing, so that, everyone is not "gosh, ko umno ke?". I mean, c'mon, puak-puak melayu di dunia volgo ni, tahu nak memabangkang je (I'm just saying). Bukan membangkang sebab parti pembangkang (of course tu hak masing-masing, I'm not imposing it on everyone), but, bila kau orang semua dah tengok MSA terkongkang kangkeng, terkangkang-kangkang akibat kau orang yang cuba bangkang sana sini, asking that kau orang punya pendapat jeee yang paling betul dalam dunia ni, seriously, try another way, instead of creating problems. (seriously PROBLEMS), why try we build our own 'more protecting' community. Bangunkan PPIM, bangunkan KUV. Tak susah, cuma kerjasama je. Inipun KUV dan PPIM nak tunjuk kau aku lagi hebat, payah la.

apa yang aku cuba cakap is, kita ada tanggungjawab yang lebih besar, daripada kita melihat sesuatu yang kecil yang dianggap besar. get over it.

Okeh, Maher is our KUV president. Apa-apa pun, I fully put my trust in him and his leadership. I'm not doing this for myself, like, wth tetiba aku nak aktif kan? Aku rasa inilah masanya, aku cuba biasakan diri dengan cuba 'berjasa'. But, in my own way. Ini bukan UMNO, ini mengenai perpaduan dan ke-tak-nak-nampak-bodoh-an punya semangat who made me stand up.

Mari kawan-kawan seVOlgo, hidupkan student club kita. KUV or PPIM. Not just stand there saying "where where MSA, mom, mom, where MSA?". I will slap you in the face with butter cream.

Saya dan Biochemistry Test

My test?

Sucks. Titik. Tak menyesal, tak sedih. Kecewa sikit-sikit. Tapi, nervertheless, it's over rite? Bye-bye.

Biochemistry, perang aku dengan kau bukan semester ni. Semester depan lepas aku dapatkan histology and anatomy. Faham?

God, I hate anything related to Chemistry? Why do you guys like?

Membina masjid

ini merupakan video yang telah diedit oleh me. jadi, sama2 amek pengajaran. doakanlah suapya masjid ini berjaya dibina di bumi Rusia ini.

Salam.

AKIRA SHOCKED !!!

I was totally shocked. Akira shocked !!! (later)

Life's going more hectic, and more more hectic after this. The exam are just around the corner, about one month from now on. Sadly, we've lots of things need to study, with Biochemistry and Physiology test ahead of us next week. I am less blogging, but it doesn't mean I study more. I'm lazy like a pig, laying on sofa, sleeping inside my warm blanket, because right now everything is pretty damn cold. I hate cold weather because of this. :(

What's new about me is, I just adapted to Biochemistry after 2 months of studying it. Like I said before, I'm really really really not good in adapting to a new situation, new subjects, and that is why I am totally suck in my study. I'M LAST-MINUTE-HERO-PERSON. So, luckily I already adapted to how-study-biochemistry just right before the time. This semester, we gonna have Histology and Anatomy exams. Both are freaking subject with lots of things need to be read. Maybe, my first exam gonna be Histology. Hundreds of slides need to be remembered (seriously, all the slides just look the same, I kinda don't understand WTF is actually they are seeing in the slides).

Anyway, from now on, please someone listen to this swear, because I'm swearing that, I, Muhammad Hafidz Bin Hasan, swear that:
Starting from today, 7th December 2010 and to 22th January 2010, I will
1) Stop YouTubing for entertainment reasons
2) I will only open YouTube for studying reasons
3) I will start studying starting from 5:30 to 12:30, with few intervals for about 10-15 minutes each (including for solat)
4) Each day I have to study at least 2 subjects.
5) Then, each night, after studying, and before going to sleep, I have to do solat Hajat.
6) Training for badminton is only for Friday and Sunday
7) I will not studying on sofa anymore. And listen to music while I'm studying, except Al-Quran.
8) I will start revising for my final exams starting from next 2 weeks.
9) Get all the exam schemes from my senior/whoever it is in 2 weeks time, from now on.
10) Sleep at 1:30 a.m everyday. STOP WASTING MY TIME.

*That's all*

Other than that, I can do what I want. I will hold what I swore.

Ah, there's one thing. I'm in shocked because, I was shocked. Anyway, just be patient, because Allah knows everything. This is not just the time yet. Anyway, glad because of it. Really really glad. Lot of things need to be prepared though, for myself.

Thank you for listening and witnessing. Salam Maal Hijrah. Have you already make your hijrah?