Modesty

I never thought that I can stream the radio channels in Malaysia via iPhone. That's so cool! Buy an iPhone, worth it!

*Apple, can I get extra discount on MacBook coz' I promoted one of your product? Please.*

I'll never gonna buy MacBook anyway. I had Biochemistry and Histology classes today, since this is the last week of classes before our New Year Break, so we didn't expect anything to be that 'hard'. Ouh, except for Histology, we've got concluding test; It's PMS time! However, passed that test already. But, something seemed so wrong today. Everything was so damn straight and lucky today. It's like I'm not suppose to get that marks, but I've got that marks. I wondered why is it has to be like this? You know, when I'm ready, everything that will happen is crap. No seriously crap. But, if I didn't ready for anything (last minute struggle, didn't read lecture note, didn't draw anything, didn't know any slide), then what I got is, not bad. Uish, this is so wrong. Syukr.

Okay, actually I stopped at the paragraph above yesterday. Because? I was not in the mood. Now I'm back, in 31 December. Yeah, currently the whole Russians and maybe most of my friends are counting down to celebrate New Year? Me, hell to the NO. Last year I slept,so what should I expect for this year anyway?

*Suddenly, I just realized that, I'm improving a lot in writing, like no need to watch for any 'past or present tense' in each sentence. This is so WOW. But still I'm suck in writing though.*

Few days past, my friend posted in her blog about 'Kesederhanaan' which bring us to the topic- 'Modesty'. Actually I am much interested in my other friend's blog post, which is about 'lecture'. Yeah, I admit that I felt offended by her post, BUT SERIOUSLY I have my own reasons to say that I'm right, and nevertheless she's wrong. Nevermind, it's better to be in 'peace' right? Did you get what I mean 'peace'? Ah, whatever.

Back to the topic, actually, when I was reading her blog, 'light bulb' suddenly appeared which brought me to write an offended-or-not status in Facebook- "Do we consider it is modesty when we appear to show off the modesty?". Yeah, it was all of sudden idea. Somehow, she felt kinda offended with that status. Sorry Aynn, I had no intention at all, it just only...an idea. I am so manipulative in seeing positive things to negative things; coz' I'm not an optimist. That's why I love opposing something. But, seriously do we consider things ARE in MODESTY if we SHOW OFF the modesty? I see, 'modesty' is the opposite of 'show off', but still, modesty is kinda 'good' right? Actually Aynn did asked me, what is 'modesty' actually is? How do we measure it?

Sincerely, modesty is hard to measure. It's hard because it involves our heart. My Ustazah once said that, what we see people from the outside, is what we can see people from the inside. Sorry Ustazah, since the first second you said that, my answer is still NO until now. You can't judge people from the outside; how he wears, how he talks, how he's saying thank you, how he appreciates things. Simply because everyone is UNIQUE. God made us with different faces, attitudes, thus making our community has our own diversity. There's a reason for that. Maybe you said he's showing off his modesty; like Nik Aziz does. He lives in moderate house. He's doing that because he wanna show people 'be like me'. See, it depends on people, because Allah told us that, everything that we voluntarily do, firstly it starts with 'nawaitu'. Not stimulus as in Physiology.

That is not wrong.

Does living as a moderate person means we can't get anything better than others? I mean, like I wanna an iPhone, suddenly, there's a makcik was begging for money on the street, you cancelled it just because you think "I'm buying this iPhone, while that makcik was begging for money", then, "It's better I give all my money to her so that she can get better life as me". Well, that's fucking stupid moderate, seriously no offense. We have our own life, we work for it.

"But but, how about if I'll talk only among the girls, no guys, is it still can be considered as I am moderate in conversation?". Man, this is what I have to say, it's right, but depends. I'm not playing God, but I'm giving my opinion. This is not an ultimate truth, like I said, it's just an opinion. Kita cakap kita Muslim bersaudara, tapi apa yang terjadi di sini, yang aku nampak aku dan aku Muslim lelaki, yang lebih ketara, kau dan kau Muslimah perempuan. Cakap saudara seIslam, tapi, bila kau perlukan pertolongan kuli laki baru kau terhegeh-hegeh nak baik dengan lelaki, apa kes?

Nah, boring la, lebih baik aku layan Naomi yang sedap-sedap dok atas peha aku yang empuk ni, dari aku layan rigidity. Pfft. Babai. Naomi pun dah lari, aku lagi la.

Salam.