Friday, December 17, 2010

No hope at all

5:32 AM
ANother 1 month, and poof, I'm gonna die. TOTALLY gonna die. Like seriously, anatomy is already a mind-blowing subject, with belambak-lambak questions. You know, meninggalkan satu bulan kelas, boleh mati. terus. tercekik. pitam time jawab exam nanti. but, I'm not gonna blame my extended cuti for that.

But, still, I'm gonna blame someone.

Tiap-tiap minggu kelas ktorang akan ada 2 kelas Histology dalam table. Frequent, tapi tak menyusahkan. Macam masuk, rileks. Buat pekak, pastu balik. Itu je. Tak macam kelas bebudak lain, nak masuk kelas dah kena torture baca itu ini. An advantage la untuk diaorang. Bagi aku, aku prefer macam tu lagi. Well, certainly, it depends on lecturer. Lecturer aku, gosh, malas. And seriously, for the past 3 weeks, including this week, she's being more/less kind of lazy, and kind freaked up with our group. Apart from Indians, yeah, she knows them, but, mann, why I'm in the middle of you guys?

Seriously, tadi adalah ultimate kesabaran aku kat dia. Macam, masuk kelas, keluar sejam, suruh ktorang lukis lukisan dalam album YANG KTORANG DAH LUKIS 2 MINGGU LEPAS LAGI, then dia keluar sejam. pastu masuk, dia tanya "nak rehat?", jawablah nak rehat. pastu keluar, pastu masuk balik, bawak laptop, ingatkan nak ajar. pastu tetibe cakap ada pertandingan sukan. we all were like "wtf seriously sukan? sejuk-sejuk macam ni? and apa pun kat bangunan ni ada hall sukan keee?". I mean, if dah malas, cakaplah dah malas. ktorang pun malas. masa-masa tuh aku boleh sit kat rumah, and open this topic independently. ceh.

then ada member dia dekat dua kali masuk keluar kelas. weh, watefak weh? pastu dia keluar. and then, bincang sikit2 ngan ktoorang psl topik yang takde kaitan ngan minggu ni. dia cakap suruh study laen minggu ni, tapi tanya lain. pastu keluar sekali lagi jumpa kawan, then masuk balik, "awak semua tau, awak semua taktau apa-apa pun, tak belajar apa-apa pun!". pastu dia sambung "repeat semua yang dlm topik ni bla bla bla".

beliece me, the thing repeats. she'll never keep her words.

ah, that is why my histology exams gonna be spoiled. seriously DUST. bukan sbb tak ajar, tapi, once mentality dia like benci we all, so, bye-bye. saya tak letak harapan apa-apa pun. apa nak jadi, jadilah.

and somehow, tadi time pikir pasal exam ni, aku terpikir, "am i enough competing with everyone just to get the best, which somehow, if i'm the best, i'm still the worst kind of student". so boring la pulak jadi orang yang excellent, somehow, failure is fun what?

okeh. that is not my point. but, what i want to say is, gerak sama-sama. mampus la exam. exam tak indicate apa-apa pun. ilmu tuh. adeh.

maybe ni sindrom malas aku kot. menjadi-jadi.




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